2004 was one of the best and worst years of my life. I meet my amazing husband and I lost my dear sweet grandmother. She passed away in December just days before Nicholas was coming to meet my family for the first time. He never had a chance to meet my grandmother but he knows the influence she has had on me.
I can contribute about 98% of my personality to her. She was strong, independent, never afraid to speak her mind, and most importantly loving. She loved to work and loved her career. But more than anything she loved her family. You could always count on her to gush and brag about us to anyone that would listen. She never missed any of my dance performances and would always tell me I was the best out there. She also gave me her expensive taste! She loved to shop and always knew what was in styles. She had the most beautiful singing voice (one trait I missed out on). I treasure all the little songs she would sing us and plan on singing them to Baines, even though it won’t sound as beautiful.
One of my most treasured memories comes from one of the worst memories of my life. I had to go to jail here in California (totally unrelated story) and my grandmother told me to call her collect so we could talk until my dad posted bail. I was there for almost three days and spoke with my grandmother the whole time. She was always so accepting and understanding of every mistake I made. I don’t even remember what we spoke about but I just remember feeling so loved. I didn’t know at the time how sick she was because she didn’t want us to know. This was in September and she passed away in December.
She also loved make up and hated leaving the house without any, as do I. When we arrived at her viewing before the funeral, I noticed that her eyebrows hadn’t been colored in. This is another trail I picked up form her; I have the lightest eye brows and have to color them in everyday. It might sound weird or creepy to some people but I got an eyebrow pencil and filled them in before everyone arrived. (PS I’m crying as I type this) It was an amazing opportunity that I know my grandmother truly appreciated. I’m so glad I got to do that one last thing for her.
When we found out we were having a girl, I knew her middle name would be Amy Lue after my grandmother. I miss her everyday and she’ll always be in my heart. I can’t wait to share stories with Baines about her great grandmother. I only wish she was here to share in my joy.